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from the title, im stuck listening to that song by weezer, since it fits my situation with a girl these days, so far the progress has halted to a standstill and i dont know what to do, besides that i have other stuff going on im life, be nice if i got a signal or direction to look forward to with her, so i wouldnt have to sit on my hands, w/e sit and wait it is

So tired, very confused. damn i am out of my element. im fire what are you? well my flame has grown black, no longer the red that encouraged bravery and other crap. time flies by, pendulum swings, grains of sand fall, hands tick. I dont know where to go from here. Get busy dying, get busy living, i want the middle one. No longer myself right now, hate it and love it. Want to reach out with a hand but turn it into a fist if someone gets close. Create a alter ego, call him fenix let him say everything and do on to others that I am to meek to do, let my weaker self ........... juss sit in the shadows of a poor lit room

Have those days where the well placed plans you have completly disentegrate into complete utter fucking shit?!   Damn domino effect crushing my plans with each fall, my patience running thin, cant even think straight. The world is already screwed, WHY does my little world that resides in my head have to go down with reality downward spiral. My own replacement reality goes straight to hell where Satan is snacking in it while poking some dead asshole. But hey Satan is no where near the friggin banshee (sister) next door. Her hell hole mouth needs a grenade it in. EXPLODE damn you! All the times Ive watched over you and defended you and all I get is SHIT, Your full of Shit u no good bitch, Go commit to hell somewhere else, before I send you to place worse than hell because if do hell will seem like heaven and Satan will be wearing a plastic halo too, u scorn bag bitch
Scratch out my fucking scars and slice my vocal cords right now, cause I want to bleed to feel and scream to steam out